Insane in the membrane.

They finally put the bios up on the website, so you guys should come check it out!  Here's mine:

http://www.beckleyareaderbydames.com/kapowndcake.html

Here's the link to all the other fabulous dames:

http://www.beckleyareaderbydames.com/dames.html

Yesterday was one hell of a day... I had been talking with Cupcake the day before about my hopes and dreams for future bouts and I definitely got a doozy of information and some firecracker-up-my-ass motivation.  So yesterday at practice I tried to hang in there as long as I could - a few minor stretches when I really REALLY couldn't take it anymore- but I was good.  I did a pack drill that threatened to break my ribs (and I think that it might have broken a couple).  When I fell, the bottom part of my ribcage bounced (literally, BOUNCED) off the top of my thighs and the wind was knocked straight out of me.  I've had the wind knocked out of me before, but it never ceases to amaze me how terrifying it could be.  I had to turn over and lay for a minute.  Then the nausea happened.

I'm not a pussy by any means, but thinking even for a second that I could be sidelined with "motion sickness" (or whatever the fuck it is that happened to me at that exact moment) just filled me with fire.  I spat a few times into the trash can, took a swig of my fruit juice, and skated back out on the floor.

Then, it happened.

Sadly, I can't be in any more pack drills until I am agile enough that my captain feels it is safe for both myself and the other skaters.  I don't really blame her, but have you just ever wanted something so bad?  It literally pains me to think that my injuries have set me back so far from the rest of the girls.  I just want my shot.

But I have literally gone through hell and back with this team and there's no backing out now.  Every single time I get an injury, I'll get back up and keep on skating.  I will not quit.  I will not allow failure to reign over me.  No way.