Hearing aid update:
I went back to the doctor and he turned them up. Now I can turn them down when there's a loud piercing annoying noise (such as a brat screaming in the store... we ALL know there's a difference between a spoiled cry and a legitimate cry), and I can turn them up when I need to focus on a one-on-one conversation or the television. So, good news. :)
HEARING AID BATTERIES ARE EXPENSIVE! It's like $15 for an 8 pack or some shit, which isn't saying a lot because I have dual hearing aids that need to be changed out every week! I mean, I like to hear, but damn, I like to eat too.
So, June 3rd!!!
And, most recently... July 7th!!!
I was so goddamn excited! I mean, honestly, nothing compares to the hard work we've put in and getting results from that hard work! HARD is always an excellent group of girls, and to be friends with them off the track is just an amazing thing.
July 21st Skeeter and I will be driving to Charleston to NSO (Non-Skate Official) for the Chemical Valley Rollergirls... They're friends of ours as well and great supporters of BADD. Afterwards, we'll be crashing on McKilla Guerilla's mattress so Skeeter can hang out with one of his friends (Nick, McKilla's husband) and I can hang out with McKilla and Jennacidal. :) Derby Awesome Overload!
So that's my deaf and derby update...
I said something last post about incorporating more beauty and truth into my life. I guess I need to provide you all with some sort of explanation for that.
Truth is, I'm not the same person I used to be. The same things don't make me laugh anymore, I don't like the same music, the same fashion, the same jokes... The people I once found attractive I don't anymore. I'm just... Different. You can blame that on derby or you can take it at face value: People. Fucking. Change. They just do. Rae told me recently that women don't actually fully develop their tastes or mindsets until they're 27. And I know for GODDAMN sure that I'm not finished growing yet... My appetite has even changed.
I s'pose I'll address this here... Good of place as any...
With this growth I have discovered that certain people I once had in my life and even were thrilled TO have in my life just didn't fit in anymore. One of these people happened to be one of my very dear friends that I have had since high school. 'Round bout 9 years... Maybe 10. I'm no good at math.
I used to like all the same things that this person did, including chatting on the phone at the drop of a hat and even daily correspondence. But as my life has gotten busier and I have changed more and more, talking to them, let alone ANYONE had become more and more of a chore. I just didn't feel like it.
The backlash I got every time it would happen would publicly embarrass me that I could be friends with someone so childish, someone so crass.
Eventually I just got tired of having to explain myself after I had several times before... It was always just the same thing, and it SUCKED.
With the elimination of this person from my life I was called selfish, childish, and that I would, for lack of a better phrase die alone. That I had thrown away everything for derby, my boyfriend, my cat, and independence. So to that, I say, fuck yes. WHAT ELSE DO I NEED IN LIFE BESIDES MY AUTONOMY, CAT, BOYFRIEND, AND ROLLER DERBY?! A SPORT THAT LITERALLY BREATHED LIFE INTO ME??? You're not the only person that I banned from my life and I guarantee you won't be the last. And I fucking PROMISE you that it wasn't because of derby. It was because you were a selfish fucking BRAT who can't stand when people just don't want to talk to you. I mean honestly, I can't put it any other way than that. There are still people in my life and on my friends list that were there before derby and they're there now. They'll continue to remain there as long as their friendship is worth investing in. Yours just wasn't. I don't need that negativity in my life, after explaining myself, COUNTLESS times about why you shouldn't be offended.
In the end, I just didn't know what to do. So I did the only thing I knew would make me happier in the end.
It makes me feel better too. I didn't say half of what I'm being accused (I reread the email). But, it's irrelevant to any and all situations. No matter what, I'll always love you, and wish you well.
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